something is not right

Again this month I took 2 days off medical leave (MC). I am not feeling well and not just that, this moment of my life there is no spark to cheer up my day.

I am beginning to get bored with the office life. Indeed my job just to monitor the project progress and preparing the report for the bosses. Still, there is no fun anymore. It is just not the same anymore, everything goes different as what I have planned.

The study time was more fun I can say enough. When my degree was not recognized, at first I can managed to find alternative way rather than wait decision from the authority. I am totally lost in the jobhunt and finally a company willing to hired me.

2 months plus in the office currently, I just don't feel right. Probably I missed so much my uni life..They kept me busy..and I love travelling part so much.

Dear god, please help this young lady find the way..

Congratulations brother of your promoted job! At least you love your adventure job.

son of the sultan

Tengku Amir with his mother (Star Online,2009)

OMG! OMG!
One previous night (which I did not totally remember when) all of us watching the night news and in one topic,my eyes spot the handsome man on the throne behind the father which is Sultan Selangor.

And I directly said out loud, ' Sape mamat kat belakang Sultan tu?'

My mom quickly answered,'Eh, handsome la anak Sultan ni..Kau tackle la dia, Dilla'

And I was like wondering not satisfied with my mom's answer,'Ye ke anak Sultan ni? I thought he was a little chubby boy when he was crown as Raja Muda years ago!'

Dengan slumber my mom jawab simple.'Tu zaman bila kau ni pun,sekarang mesti lah handsome and grown up!'

Silent between us then..Dalam hati dah berangan, Kalau lah aku kahwin dengan anak raja..

wedding again

the purple ladies

Saturday night tadi ada wedding belah pihak pengantin lelaki (groom's function)kat Dewan Merak Kayangan, Jalan Gurney, KL.this was my cousin's wedding ok.its not mine..

The food again, nice..guests tak payah nak bangun2 pergi kat makanan,ko duduk jek tunggu makanan datang kat ko..the pelamin also nice,I think it was the first time I attend wedding dinner kat prestij and glamour hall. The waiter and waitress were from FELDA catering services. Dah guna dewan FELDA, so segala2nya dari FELDA la.

Tapi sayang, kita ni nama orang melayu..tapi dari MC hinggalah ucapan dari keluarga pihak lelaki(kecuali mak bapak pengantin, depa cakap melayu)kami dengar soh seh cakap mat salleh gitu..kesian tengok macik pacik dari t'ganu datang terkebil2 jek dengar diorang merepek. Biarlah ini majlis mereka dan keluarga mereka..ada tan sri2,datuk2 datin2..

once again one of my aunt's friend asked me the magic question..'when yours?tak da ke engineer2 kat tempat kerja u?'and I smiled while told her, 'tunggu kad sampai ok'

Missing London??Absobloodylutely YES!

We just had our dinner at one of the seafood restaurant 1 hour from the house. While my dad drove along the palm oil estate in Ijok area,I remembered the exact road path back at my study place, Treforest.

Yes I miss all the thing in UK. The cold, summer, spring, and autumn..lies thousands of secret and beauty beneath of it..Entah bila nak sampai sana lagi..

p.s. ni kes kepanasan melampau melanda di Malaysia. Tekak aku sakit tapi aku hentam juga minum ais. Sorry tekak..

today

Hari ni sampai umah awal, jam 6ptg aku dah terpacak kat depan rumah. panas tak terkata minggu ni..kat site tu jangan cakap la..berpeluh2 dari dahi aku ni meleleh sampai pinggang kot.dah la pakai safety vest,topi kura2 tu lagi,safety boot yg berat lagi..aduhai naseb badan..naseb baik aku tak senaseb ngan kontraktor indon tu..(inilah namanya mencari rezeki halal ya pak)

selasa lepas aku dah start kurang makan nasi.at least sehari tu sekali je aku makan sesenduk nasi.kalau tak makan langsung karang mau pengsan aku kat tengah2 site tu..

memang minggu ni aku malas betul nak start kerja..asal kul 6pm je aku dah get ready nak chalo..sanggup time tengahari balik opis dari site tu aku letak handbag siap2 dalam kereta..so time balik kul 6pm satgi takdela obvious sangat bos aku nampak aku nak balik lenggang kangkung kan..ehehehe..strategi beb..

okla nothing serious today.alih2 aku siap2 nak balik kat site petang tadi ternampak sepasang kasut kontraktor indon ni..punyela kreatif kan..chiow beb..mak aku teringin sangat nak makan seafood kat jeram ni..

Hati ini..

Akhirnya selesai sudah hari bahagia mereka..Sedih bila dengar Ali, my last brother told me the relatives kutuk2 our family. Memang mulut famous nenek tu akan bercerita hal buruk aku n family kepada semua. We already get used to it. Tolong pun salah, bila tak tolong tu laagii salah..Apa yang tak puas hati sangat tu aku tatau kan. We knew we all tak senang but all my siblings managed to be a better person. Ni lah kenduri kendara, orang nak bergembira memang tak senang. Sorry to say, aku memang tak puas hati seriously. I remembered few years back, I got an offer to a boarding school in Kuantan, sekolah sains gitu..and guess what, my not so lovely grandmother tu boleh cakap;'Alah, boleh ke dila(my nickname) tu duduk hostel? dengan muka masam (maklumlah aku ni muka tak cantik) mesti susah nak dapat kawan.'

ok fine, masa tu umur 12 tahun muka aku dah berubah bila dengar orang cakap macam tu.nak meleleh jek air mata aku..ke dah meleleh tah..

aku pergi jugak kuantan tu..and believe me, I am the first grand daughter yang masuk sekolah sains..(dulu tu famous la)

and about friends, I have loads of them from Kuantan boarding school which is my best friends up to now.

That was not the end..Ada bertimbun2 lagi kutukan demi kutukan diberi..

Same thing happened before I went to UK after I got a scholarship for three years which I had to resign my job to accept the offer..(gila ko nak tolak orang suruh belajar free kat UK nuuu??)

sekali lagi ada suara jealous berbunyi lebih kurang begini,'Ko dah beli rumah, kereta lepas tu nak berhenti kerja. Kalau ko pergi London tu sape nak bayar semua ni?! Susahkan mak bapak ko je'

I already discussed this matter with family, I've sent some of my allowance to Mum for the house loan payment and kalau orang bijak tu, apa guna ada internet banking kan? bayar bil tok nenek semua boleh laaa. Trust me I did and I have no problem at all (adala sket prob, tapi kasi setel laa). And again, I was the first of the big proud family pursue my study oversea with a scholarship!! (Bukan utk meninggi diri, tapi geram)

Itu baru sikit..tapi ini yang latest one la..Yes I admit I gained soo much weight after return back home. Few days before I've been to the specialist which the Doc explaining my heart have some sort of little problem but it's look like fine with me.
Enough that, kenduri dari 2 3 hari lepas ni berbalun2 aku dikutuk,diumpat dgn masalah kegemukan yang diorang sangat busy body tak tentu arah. Macam aku ni tak boleh nak bangun kan sebab terlampau gemuk. oh my goodness.

Anyway, happy CNY everybody..esok isnin aku cuti lagi..yeehaa

cousin wedding

dua hari daku n family berkampung kat kg melayu frim ni. Cuti seminggu raya cina ni sibuk with kenduri hana the cousin.well seperti biasa le tolong sana sini and we back at 3am then sambung dtg lagi the next day..the akad tomorrow at 5pm and still loads of thing need to be done.off course the family members will make sure everything run smoothly.
P.s. Puas duk pikir nak buat apa cuti panjang kan,amik ko sibuk duk tolong kenduri kahwin..